WOW. I never post here anymore. Where do I even being? let's see...

I am still working at Urban Outfitters as a merchandising team leader. blah...

I have an amazing apartment in depot town that I just resigned the lease for and my roommate is fantastic.

going back to school blah...

ypsi/ann arbor party girl.

Low self-esteem aside, shouldn't you realize that YES there is someone out there that finds you interesting and talented? More importantly, that person is me. I give up, your loss dude.

I move in 10 days and I have one box packed. I am so lazy.

A guy doing some sort of political servey just knocked on my door. He asked me if my parents were home. Seriously how old do I look?

In every sense of the word. 

I am tired of being nice. I am sooo broke right now, I can't afford food unless I am at work. my phone is shut off again. I went over my minutes. Well, I didn't go over my minutes the people who use my phone did. I still need money from two people for the water bill. Others owe me money. I got stuck with a $30 bar tab that some people walked out on. I am just tired of being used. I am tired of being nice and not being treated nice in returned. I am tired of my things being broken and borrowed without asking. I am tired of living in my house. I can't leave and I feel powerless. I am tired of crying over people, things, and what those people do to me.

I want to fucking kill myself right now.

I have been having a lot of fun at my job. I had beer training today. I got to try every beer we have on tap and the aged Belgium beers in the beer cellar. I fucking love it! I got there at 2pm and left at 6pm, and I got paid and free dinner!

The last two months have been rather interesting, fun, extremely complicated, and rewarding. I made some new friends, lost on of them unfortunately. I am going to play a noise fest in two weeks. I can't wait!

-frantically getting all your stuff together and trying not to forget anything on Christmas morning: OKAY

-going downstairs discovering a piece of shit kid passed out on my couch: NOT OKAY

-having said kid psyically and verbally assualt me in my kitchen: FUCKED UP

-watching two of your oldest friends kick his ass in the middle of Miller Street: AWESOME

-having your Dad tell you he will 'curb a motherfucker':PRICELESS

honeycrisp apple + organic peanut butter = the best thing to happen to me today

I realized I haven't had a proper entry in weeks, so here you are...

I have been drinking coffee non stop since I got home from work at 3pm. I love coffee, and only coffee.

In reading my past entries I have come to realize that I am a sappy bitch. Seriously, I am so fucking emo it makes me sick. There are the occasional happy entries, funny entries, and contemplative entries. For the last six months most of my journaling has been about Chris. He is gone and therefore I shall blog about him no more. Besides, I am pretty happy right now.

I was semi-reclusive for awhile. I have decided that maybe, MAYBE, I will come out of my shell. I have been heard saying this before, recently in fact, but I might stick to it this time. I will make am effort tomorrow.

There is a show at my house tonight. I hope the cops don't show up because we would like to do it every Thursday. Tonight is sort of a test run as to how things might work in the future. Anyone reading this before 9:00pm, come over. 221 N. Ashley at the corner of Miller.

I am back volunteering at 826michigan. I have decided that I was going to take the summer off, then I got frustrated with the whole thing, quit, and am back. I was looking to get involved again but was looking for the right time. October is a good month for 826. There is always something to do. My Fridays and sporadic afternoons are now for the kids. Plus, it will be nice to see everyone. Amy's hair is freaking adorable! It doesn't hurt that two people I hold in high reguard encouraged me to not really care what people think of me there and to just go ahead and do it. I am not doing it for myself that's for sure, well in a way. I love children and I wish there was an 826 in LA when I was a kid.

Oh...

Please get me your submissions for Mint Julep. I would like to have this printed and ready for distrobution by October 27th.